New Kid on the Playgound

 

First Days of 30

I bid my 20s adieu and celebrated my 30th in Vegas last week. I had 5 days to balance spending time with Ian, family and relatives from Canada with partying, shopping, and eating Vegas style. I even snuck in a little gambling in which I won on the very last roll!

I have to admit that welcoming my 30th was a bit scary. But since I'm sooo over my 20s, I'm ready for a fresh new decade. The first days of thirty were filled with love, family, dancing, laughs and some of Ian's firsts. If that was any indication of the next chapter in my life, then I'm ready to jump in. 

<3
Melissa

 

Ian's First Flight

 

Ian's First Visit to Las Vegas

 

Ian's First Swim

 

Ian clapping his hands for the first time!

A Look Back: My Baby Announcement

"A year ago today, I announced you to the world.
Today, you make yourself known in your own way."

Finding out you're pregnant can be nerve wrecking, heart pounding, confusing, joyful, oh you know, every emotion in the spectrum rolled together.  But when you announce it to the world, it's exciting, thrilling even, just knowing that you have this HUGE secret that you're hiding and are about to reveal to your loved ones.

You see photos with couples cutting into blue cake, or looking up as pink balloons fill the sky. You hear stories of how they announced it to their friends and family - sonograms in picture frames, soon-to-be siblings wearing announcement shirts, etc.

When I found out I was pregnant, I knew I couldn't announce it "loud and proud" like many couples do.  I didn't have a boyfriend, wasn't dating anyone.  My parents never met a "friend" that I was hanging out with.  So to say "Hey, I'm pregnant!" would be a shock to anyone and everyone.

I knew there'd be explaining to do, but I didn't really want to.  At the time, I respected the baby daddy's decision in not wanting to be a part of the baby's life...to even be known as the baby's father.  The situation is beyond complicated and I understood.  It was a relief on my part as I wanted to do the best I could to care for my growing seed - no stress, no drama.

So for my baby announcement, I decided to show my story by creating a video on YouTube. To most people, it might be a bit confusing, sad and lost in translation...until the last 10 seconds.  But to "him" and those who know him...the message is pretty clear.

As the song says "I'm going to find a way to make it without you."

 And so far, I've done a f*ckin'great job at it.

<3

Melissa