about the day
Ian decided to come into my life:
12. I woke up thinking I was having cramps and that they would go away. I was in denial that I was experiencing contractions or that "the day has come." Ian was a week early and came on the ONE day I didn't want him to come.
11. I got sent home from the hospital for not being 4 cm dilated and hated the drive back home.
10. I was having contractions during a party at my house..for AT LEAST 3 hours of it. I was really upset and wanted to yell at everyone to leave but I didn't and stayed upstairs in my room. I was really grateful that my sister was by my side.
9. I sat on a yoga ball as I was going through contractions.
8. I wore the dress pictured above. I chose that dress because the fabric suited the summer weather, it was easy to get in and out of, and because it holds significance from Labor Day the previous year.
7. I was worried my water would break in my brother-in-law's BMW.
6. I had labor on Labor Day 2013 and was the only patient delivering in the unit that night.
5. The IV hurt more than the epidural. I actually didn't feel the epidural. The epidural was my friend.
4. I delivered Ian while on my left side because of complications.
3. I was afraid I had a still birth because Ian didn't cry right away. I held him and asked him why he wasn't crying and then he cried. Then I cried.
2. I lost so much blood that I should of had 3 blood transfusions. I didn't have a single one.
1. From the moment Ian was born, I didn't care about anything but him. I didn't comprehend the seriousness of my own complications after delivery. I only hoped that he was ok. I wanted to make sure he had all 10 fingers and 10 toes. I couldn't believe I did it and he was PERFECT. I wasn't thinking of sharing the news just yet. I wanted to keep holding Ian. I wanted to look at him and give him his name. It was me and him from the start and we were getting a new beginning.
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Melissa
I truly love your blog, I'm going to be a single mom to a little boy in November and you give me hope that I am going to be just fine, thank you and I look forward to reading more.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the comment <3 You will definitely do great! Congratulations and Best wishes!
ReplyDeleteThank you for replying :) I had my son on Nov 10, 2014.. he was also born a week early, 6lbs 14oz and 19.5", very close to Ian. I was wondering about your decision to give Ian his fathers name as his middle name, did your family and friends give you a hard time about it? I chose to give my son his fathers name as his middle name and I have people who fully support me and then I have family, mostly the men who have given me a hard time about it. At the end of the day I knew it was my decision and he is still his father who gave me this gift of a wonderful amazing unbelievably beautiful little baby boy.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
ReplyDeleteI gave Ian his father's name as his middle name because I knew I would NEVER let him have his last name but I still wanted him to have some part of him. I know he'll have some traits, characteristics of his father's but there's just something in a name that makes you feel forever connected. I wanted Ian to always know that I let his father be a a part of him in at least the smallest way.
I also like the name Joseph and took it as St. Joseph, the adopted father of Jesus. Ian also means "Gift from God." So put together it just seemed fitting that Ian is a gift from God and that St. Joseph will bless him with an adopted father some day.
I kept the name a secret until the day Ian was born. Family and friends had things to say but nothing really bad since I explained the whole meaning with it. I'm sure people on the father's side had their opinions and were surprised...but...they will always only know one side of the story.
Enjoy your blessing! Happy 1st Holidays with the little one <3