Ian Joseph is ONE!

My sweet Ian Joseph,

When I first found out about you, I was afraid.  I thought I'd have to face an unknown alone.  I was wrong.  You were with me the whole time.  You helped me along my pregnancy, growing healthy and kicking lively.  It wasn't love at first sight, but love from first touch and sound.     

The way you came in to this world was just your style...unexpectedly, during a party, and at night.  That night, I finally got to see the face of a boy I loved without ever seeing.  Beautiful. Perfect. Incredible.  I finally had a hand to hold to start our journey.

This past year has been a roller coaster.  I thought I was failing when you had jaundice and became my little night light.  But then we persevered through it, and I never thought that I'd be happy for explosive diapers which were signs of recovery. You took your "first shot" at 4 days because we had to resort to cup feeding to make sure you were getting enough sustenance.  And even though I had to spend my bonding time with a machine for 8 months, it was worth it to see you full, happy and thriving.

The months have passed so quickly.  I can still remember having to check your breathing when you'd take extended naps in your swing.  I'll never forget your first smile, your first giggle..  It seems like just yesterday that I was doing laundry almost every other day to keep up with your shenanigans. You are my alarm clock -  on point with feeding..so glad you got your timeliness from me.  You fought to stand tall, but still stubborn to walk. You're babbling, laughing and I just wonder what's going on in that big head of yours.
  
I know I compare your progress with some of your baby friends, but you amaze and make me proud each time you hit a milestone.  As the days passed, I grew to know that I can trust you with your own pace.  I'm definitely cherishing you as my little baby, because I know that it won't be too long 'til you learn to run away from me...hopefully just for hide and seek.

I love the little personality that's expressing itself loud and joyfully.  You are funny, smart, persistent, and loving. You liven any moment with your dancing and I can't help but laugh at how adorable you are. After a long day, the way you lay into me and become my little spoon brings a calmness to my heart.

Ian, you are my heart on two feet, the love of my lifetime.  

I look forward to more adventures, explorations and journeys with you.  

Now let's celebrate...

We made it to ONE!

<3

Mama